It’s Tuesday and only 9:30, but it feels like it should be noon or something. Some days are like that though. Yonese has arrived and has started the pouciel (dust) attack. There’s a lot. Mostly from the wall knock down. I just resigned myself to living with it and kept telling myself she was coming in so I would let her work on it.
I mentioned the flying cement the other day. Just so you have some idea about renovating Haitian style I thought I’d share these…
The last couple days have given me a bit more time to step back and think a bit. I find “be content in all circumstances” running through my head a lot. When it does I wonder, “Am I content here?” I don’t know if I have a definitive answer to that. Some days I feel like I am. Other days not so much. Some days it’s easier to get there than others.
Over the weekend when the renos were happening and I was stressing out Chris and I were talking through things and I realized that maybe I was pushing too much for things that really aren’t that important. Maybe my time is better focused on other things. I just read a book recently where one of the characters would go through a mental list of what she had. I’ve been thinking about that in light of contentment. It’s often easier to sit and think about all of the things we don’t have and want or think we need, but what about what we do have? I think my list would look like this…
~I have a wonderful husband who loves me more than I understand.
~I have the expectation of starting our family and the knowledge that God’s got all of that figured out – I believe he’s bringing the right baby to us and it’ll happen at the right time.
~I have a roof over my head and a house that doesn’t leak – many of our neighbors aren’t so lucky.
~I have a place to work where I feel the satisfaction of knowing that we’re changing lives and that God has put us here. Whether or not we get a salary is irrelevant – we do it because we’ve been called. How many people can say that about their work?
~I have two loving families and an army of friends that are supporting us and the work we’re doing.
~I have a reminder in front of me every day that sometimes our priorities in life need to change – that maybe it’s not about having, but about being.
~I have the knowledge that I am a child of God and that he has already given me everything I need for this life.
There’s a lot more that could be added, but that’s what’s in my head right now. I want to be content in all circumstances. Sometimes that’s hard, but it is possible. Sometimes the easiest way for me to get there is through gratitude. I learned that through a friend a few years ago and it really changed my outlook on things. Being thankful puts me in the position of receiver rather than wanter.